Yes, another digital illustration. The Blue Cats Illustration has been in my drafts for something like three months. I began drawing it for fun, with no idea in mind. I just wanted to see where my intuition would have led me, following my instincts and my ‘needs’. The process has been a little bit of a roller coaster. I loved the first blue cat at the center, but then I really had no idea of how to continue. What began as an emotional and creative exercise ended up feeling like a waste of time, something I had to turn into an illustration I could sell. And so I froze.
After a few tries and many hits back on my photoshop history and many more layers deleted, I realized that trying to detour from my original idea of drawing for fun was silly and, indeed, a waste of time. Because nothing good was coming out of it anyway. So I’ve just let it go and saw what wanted to come out from my pen more as a spectator than a creator.
And, needless to say, once I’ve had let go of my expectations I finished in just a couple of hours.
What came out was something different, sweeter than most of the drawings I’ve made in the past. It is somehow more childish and feminine. Or at least that’s how I see it.
I wasn’t sure I liked it at the beginning and I almost didn’t want to post it anywhere. But I had announced on my Twitter that I was about to finish a drawing that had laid undone in my drafts for months, and so I had to show it. And I did.
And now, the more I look at it, the more I like it. Go figure.
I’m not giving up on digital as it’s so much easier to draw with on certain days. But I’m going back to watercolors, even if I’m taking it very slowly. This past year has been an emotional turmoil – I know I am not the only one – and painting has been difficult. It’s much easier to do it when deleting and retouching means just clicking back through the history panel.
But I am slowly feeling better, and I miss my watercolors.
Spoiler alert: there’s is already one watercolor illustration in the making.