New look, new beginnings

Hey, yes you’re on the right website. I know, it looks different! Let me explaine what happen.

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A few things have changed lately. Since the pandemic began my so-called ‘day jobs’ have been subsequently diminishing to the point of being completely canceled.

WTF, you may say and I probably should say it too.

Instead, the day I got the phone announcing that the last of the job standing was being canceled, I went to bed and I slept like a baby for 12 hours straight. This NEVER happens. I always wake up to go to the bathroom, or because I’m thirsty, or because the cats make noises. But that night I slept like never before.

I woke up feeling great but also expecting some kind of nervous break down at any moment. You see, I NEEDED those jobs. Right now I have a total of eighteen cats (during the lockdown a very pregnant mommy ‘magically’ appeared in my garden), who very soon will need to be spayed and neutered and, most of all, need to be fed. I still have to pay the rent and the bills seem to fly in at every breath I take.

I NEEDED THOSE JOBS.

My adult and very responsible side kept on repeating this, but my consciousness was clearly telling me something different.

That nervous break down caused by the fear of not having enough work to get by has never come.

There is nothing I can do about the lack of work. I live in northern Italy and the situation here has been terrible. I cannot count how many people I know that have been sick, how many people I know that have lost dear ones. I suffer from severe chronic asthma, I have a history of pneumonia, I’m under constant medication and my doctor was clear: If I get it I have little chances of getting through it and in case I would my condition would worsen. I’m lucky I’m alive and healthy.

I always wanted to work from home and only from home but with all the things I have to pay for and all the responsibilties I have this has never been fully possible.

Instead, right now, it’s the only possible thing. It’s the only thing I always wanted and it’s the only thing I can do now.

That nervous break down never came because it’s useless. And because I have been lifted from all my responsibilities, for once in my life, in change of the chance of doing what I always dream of. FREE OF CHARGES GIVEN BY MY SENSE OF GUILT!

To mark this new beginning I decided to give this website a new look. I’m not fully satisfied yet, but I like it better than the old one. For now. You know me, I love to change.

So for now, here’s to a new chapter!

Stay safe everyone, wear a mask!

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